
Spuggy had run out of time. I don’t mean he was dying. At twenty-four-years-old he had decades ahead. But the age into which he went to war was dead, and his story had ended, leaving him nothing but trekking stubborn through the years, dragging the prosthetic leg behind him.
Once, in the pub, Spuggy spoke about how that hurt. “The only time they ever talk about ‘our brave soldiers’ is the sodding dead ones.”
As he spoke, he drank, like he was firing and reloading a number 8 rifle, technically, methodically. His was a journal of blank pages on which no more words will ever be written for as long as he lives.
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His perspectives on life will become a book by itself. I know a guy in his twenties, who lost a leg due to cancer, then lost his job and girlfriend. Instilling hope in him was a tough task. Bitterness has seeped in quite deep. It is the Why Me syndrome.
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Thanks. Reena
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That’s really tough for your friend, Reena. I had brain surgery in my mid-twenties with a similar result. However, while my work life was never quite the same afterwards, I went on to meet my hu/sband who accepted me as I was and also saw me improve and make giant leaps forward. Being young and having these things happen to you is very hard to deal with. My grandfather lost his leg to cancer when I was a child and it always terrified me. Somehow, i think we need to prepare people better for the terrible setbacks that do happen in life and that many people are dealing with something, but you can’t always see it. These are really hard and bitter pills to swallow but people can move forward.
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Fully agree. You know it better from experience than I can describe in words. Thank you so much for the valuable inputs!
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The rifle/drinking analogy is spot on. Well done.
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Thanks so much, Sandra
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Dear Neil,
Seems we went in similar directions this week. Nicely done.
Shalom,
Rochelle
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I bow to the Master
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You’ve captured the maudlin sense of loss brilliantly here, Neil. Sounds like it’ll be a long time before he comes out of his depression, if he ever does.
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He will, but not in this story, and only briefly. Thanks, Michael
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Grim story, but all too true. Well done.
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Thanks so much, Joshua
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This is a sad reality for many soldiers.
Wish there was no war…
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Don’t stop wishing
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Spuggy is right, we remember the dead soldiers, we have memorials for the battles, do we remember those that lived through it and have to carry on with life? The expectation that they should fit back into society as though nothing has happened is absurd.
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Thanks, Iain
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Contained a lot of the misery when the vets return. They get the short stick. You don’t need to have died to be worthy. good drabble.
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Thanks, Stu
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Great story, Neil. You make the point that Spuggy has lost all that really makes life worth living with considerable force. Like Sandra, I liked the comparison of drinking and firing a rifle.
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Thanks so much, Penny. I was very pleased with the simile
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Well done, Neil, especially for the light you shed on the difficulties returned service people bring home, even though they’ve survived the war. My Great Uncle fought in New Guinea in WWII and returned an alcoholic and he was quite violent towards his wife. He was portrayed as the black sheep of the family because no one connected his troubles with the war. It was only after I met my husband who had two uncles who had also served in New Guinea and returned alcoholics, that the penny dropped. While more attention is now being given to PTSD among returned veterans, I still don’t hear anything about how PTSD has impacted upon their children, many of who deserve medals themselves in my mind.
BTW, I particularly loved this line: “As he spoke, he drank, like he was firing and reloading a number 8 rifle, technically, methodically.” It’s brilliant!
Best wishes for another week.
Rowena
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Thanks, Rowena, I’m glad that image worked for you
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Great story and writing, sad and so true. I like how you let the loss of limb represent how he lost the will, the knowledge of how to live. I can’t even begin to imagine the horrors those on the front lines go through.
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Thanks so much. I didn’t mean that the loss of his leg deprived him of the knowledge of how to live, but that the country no longer thought of the war in the same way as when he’d marched off
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No, I didn’t mean that either, the war did both, and the way the countries treat them.
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I’ve always thought that the people who declare war, the leaders, should all go to an island and shoot it out, or whatever, until someone “wins.” Leave our boys out of the battles.
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Some wars of course are just wars
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Well done, Neil. You truly capture the feeling of having no worth for having survived, though broken, war. Agree with the drinking/shooting analogy!
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Thanks so much, Dale
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You have expressed so well what the Spuggies of this world must endure.
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Thanks so much, Jilly
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This is so grim… just seeing such a life in front of him, not even seen as a hero… maybe even a dark reminder for people. I can only imagine what it might mean to live like that.
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Thanks, Bjorn
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Written with great emotion and authenticity.
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Thanks so much, Lisa
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wow – sad and then got sadder – and the ending line was despair…
yuk – and in my mind I tweaked it…
He felt like he was a journal of blank pages on which no more words would ever be written…but tomorrow was another day” (or not)
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sorry, it stays sad. This isn’t a happy ending kind of story
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well sadly I know that we need those kind of stories – and so I am okay with it – (wink)
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Let’s hope that he turns out to be more optimistic
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I don’t think he has much reason for optimism
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Hard-hitting stuff.
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Thanks so much
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A thought-provoking piece indeed. We need to remember the survivors, they still have to live with what they went through.
Click to read my FriFic tale
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Thanks, Keith
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It’s harder for the survivors to come to terms with the losses suffered in a war. Very touching story.
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Harder still when the war’s unpopular, Thanks for your read
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Yes. But, all wars are unpopular I think 🙂
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Oh that is so sad, especially in view of the plethora of veterans’ charities which try to help.
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Thanks so much, Liz
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A sad reality I’ve seen play out at the Legion hall and Amvets post for far too too many years.
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Thanks, Jelli
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His book of blank pages reminds me of my tome, “Everything I Know About Women.”
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At least nobody can say there’s anything actually wrong in it
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Geez what a depressing future. At 24, that seems like a long time of hopelessness.
I’m glad this is fiction.
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It is fiction, but I don’t know that the realtity is too different
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A powerful story, Neil, of the misery of soldiers who return and are expected to pick up life as normal. We pay tribute to and honor those who die (which we should) but nearly forget those who return broken. I wrote a similar story. Yours includes powerful imagery and I hope someday he finds something to fill those blank pages.
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He does. Briefly. But then he loses it again. Thanks, Brenda
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Sniff … how sad. =(
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It is the grief, the guilt and the fact that you become a statistic and you are left feeling if any body cares. That is the sentiment I pulled from your story. Best wishes.
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In Spuggy’s case it’s outrage and anger, yes at nobody caring. Thanks, James
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i’m sure there are others less fortunate then him. all he needs is to find a purpose in life and stop feeling sorry for himself. of course, it’s easier said than done.
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It’s hard to find a new purpose when you’ve been written out of history
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It’s so true! More often than not we think and do more for the dead than the living, terribly sad.
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You’re right, it goes beyond soldiers. Thanks, Dahlia
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What a lonely life he leads. How true that the dead tend to be honoured more than the living.
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Thanks, Magarisa
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Such a poignant tale. The way he recharges his glass like a rifle is a wonderful metaphor. His future of blank pages, so sad to think on.
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Thanks so much, Sarah Ann
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Wow! Now this is writing. You have so many truths here, and the writing is perfect.
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What a lovely comment. Thanks, Sascha
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